All my family was in Florida for the Christmas holidays. I did make a conscious choice not to go for many reasons. After they left my deepest depression and severe anxiety set in. I ended up calling the EMS twice and spending the night at one of our hospitals. It was terrifying not to understand what the hell was happening to me!!! They took me to CamH, which is a psych ward, that didn't make me feel anymore "Crazy" lol. I was told I needed to do CBT (Cognitive Behaviour Therapy) Essentially, this means "Get your ass up and go do Shit" So this is what I have been doing creating a routine. Its kept me in better spirits and makes me feel that I "actually" accomplished something. This is why i created this website www.mysoulwithadisorder.com and community Facebook page.