I have found this website to have become a little more serious then intended! In fact all I wanted was a Blog, which is my fault. I have provided many useful links and content. However as seriously as this disorder should be taken, if you cannot find a way to laugh at yourself then all the websites and information won't help. I would like to rid some of the world of their ignorance, but this is exactly why I created this site. Anyway it sucks shit out and is raining and I cannot drive and so on and so on. Yes it is depressing, because I know how to drive a car, boat, snowmobile and anything else that has a motor in it. So i guess I am venting a little as well. i am lucky to be able to afford a car, but it would just collect dust in my underground parking garage. I actually had a semi-future career planned out before I started to blank out and drop, that was a kick to the balls. I am still upset about it today. My therapist did put it in perspective for me however. She said its not that I can't drive these this, but that it is just dangerous for me and everyone around. So, I don't feel as bad about it anymore.